Oh that devil inside of me. Can you make yourself known? When the switch flips south and light exits the room you attack my thoughts without mercy. Your resolve and will is destructive. You drive your aspirations deep within my soul. And there I lay, the monster inside playing around inside of me like a wrecking ball. You exist in all of my doubt about life, and tear me apart the more I try to run from you.
But I'll fight no longer, only to tenderly embrace your presence. Does this confuse you? Does this make you weep at the thought of the grip you once had that exists no longer? You held onto me so strong and so tight due to my incapability to see that the battle boosted your strength. Like quicksand I sunk the more I rapidly moved. But like I said before, I embrace the darkness now.
Things have changed. I'll see well now that darkness can deliver light. There isn't any fear in this heart anymore with reference to you showing up. Why? Because you are here…right here inside me. Not walled out from me any more. Not pushed away. Just here with me. Present. Actually present.
I’m truly mindful of what you now are and who you turned me into. I am not making an attempt to fool any person any more by showing them a smile on my face. No, I should just be myself. So I tip my cap to you to all those times you cut me down. Now, let’s take a walk and work this thing out. I want to hear what you have to say about all of the years of the past. How proud are you? How much fun did you have? Are you proud of your accomplishments? Perhaps I will even clap to your success?
But we are moving on and this is the beginning of a long relationship. It’s going to be difficult, but I’m going to start chatting with you for the 1st time. But now, my choices are based primarily on light. It’s really time to start living my life and make the best decisions I am able to. But I’m aware that I must check in with you…oh demon deep within. You can show me an untraveled path that’s worth exploring in of its own. You can show me places I have always been frightened to go. But to ignore you further would be out of idiocy. Shame. Fear.
So let’s take a walk. I'd like to hear what you have got to say.
Evan Sanders is the author of The Words Of Encouragement a website dedicated to spreading encouraging words to everyone who visits and giving them a reason to continue chasing after their dreams. If you are stuck in a rough place, perhaps dealing with that devil within right now, please read these quotes about depression. They will help. A lot.