You need chaos in your soul to give birth to a dancing star – Nietzsche
“Go to the deepest darkest place you can permit yourself to be and see if you can find a little light up in the top right corner?”
Yes, I saw that little light. For years, I believed that light was something by the name of resilience. What I really didn’t know was that the light was really joy. How could joy exist in this incredibly dark moment? How could joy be present in this frightful and horrible time?
I remember how it felt in that moment. Everything was pitch black. The darkest black you might even imagine. If you have ever seen a black table that has been lacquered several thousand times, the depths seem to be endless. This situation and time in my life was this sort of black and it really was as thick is molasses.
However, there had been the presence of light. The sole issue was, I wasn’t attempting to find it.
It isn’t going to be that easy for me to go back to this place. There are lots of things that I have buried deep so no one could ever find them. Thing is, I knew they were there. They have always been there all the time. I have been so frightened to let them bubble up that I have put on my shoes and run from my past directly into the future and have completely forgotten about the present. That’s really no way to live life. That isn’t how my life will be lived from this time on.
This place, while dark, can be illuminated. Like all dark places, bring a bright enough lantern into it and you can really start to see things as they actually are and not just how your scared mind has created them to be. So I’m going to be bringing that light in.
Into the depths we dive.
Evan Sanders is the author of The Words Of Encouragement, a website dedicated to bringing the best quotes, motivational content on the web, and blogs all to one place.